Today's the day

                                              
                                                      Well today is finally the day I will be going on my trip.  I can hardly believe how time passes when you aren't counting down the days waiting for the day to arrive.  In a way I felt I really didn't need to because people were doing that for me.  Every once in a while starting on the 10th when the 9th when we knew that I was going for sure I would start getting texts from uncle Rick, or Judy telling me that they couldn't wait to see me and that there were so many days left.  I however didn't want to hear the count down because I was getting excited and if I heard how many days it seemed longer rather then shorter so I text "Stop it with the count down and it will  faster. 
                  Then of course I text a smiley face and LOL so that neither of them knew that I wasn't being mean.  Well anyway Uncle Rick and Judy stopped counting down the days but I still got little texts from their family such as Mandi and of course Rickey posted on my facebook timeline saying that he couldn't wait to see me.  But there were others who were still counting down for me such as mom, and mark, and grandma.  Every once in a while I would hear something like "four more days Frodo, aren't you excited?" Yes I was excited the whole time but I don't get excited to where I am jumping up and down until the night before or the day of we go somewhere.    
                          Yes last night I was pretty much all smiles as mom helped me pack and Nathan looked at me and asked curiously "Where are you going?"  mom told him and he looked at me with jealous eyes and said he wished he could go.  Mom laughed and said she felt the same way.  But anyway yes I was literally jumping and running around the house last night from excitement.        
                               Today I am bit calmer.  I think it's because the day has finally arrived and I will be on my way.  :)  I will update you on the trip when I come home I doubt I will be posting anything on here before then.  bye XOXO                               

A quiet Thankngiving, is it normal

                                           

                                                     Well Thanksgiving is over and as I promised I said I would update you on what we did, on how it was ect. As you can see from part of my title it was more quiet then the last couple years that we have had it.  Normally dad would ask a good friend of ours Dr Vretas and his wife to come over with her mother and of course there was James, Joy, and Hailee, and Nathan of course myself and he would do the turkey and all the sides that are popular on Thanksgiving and we would have fun socializing, eating, ect but at the end of the evening dad would look worn out and he said to me a month ago,
                                                     "It's too much for one person to do by themselves, I like to do it but it's so much work entertaining so many people by yourself I am just going to have you and Nate, and Hailee over this year."  
I didn't care how he wanted to celebrate it, I just wanted to celebrate it with him because for as far as I know Thanksgiving is Dad's favorite holiday as well and that is something I have in common with him. In fact when I got old enough to decide for myself where I wanted to spend the holidays with since my parents are divorced I always chose dad.  There is something about the way that dad is that makes the Thanksgiving holiday more special and makes me smile.
                                                 But anyway like I said this year was more quiet except for maybe the cell phones and timers going off.  A couple hours after I had woke I had sent everyone that I had knew that was  on my phone a text wishing them a Happy Thanksgiving and a little personal message like what I was Thankful for in them.  I had sent Jess one saying that I was thankful for her loyal friendship same with Becca.  :)  So my cell was constantly going and dad's was constantly ringing as well because James wanted to do the turkey just like his. But anyway it all came out great!  I got to admit it did feel a bit awkward at first with it being so quiet and without James and Joy there.  I got to admit I almost wish there was one more person just to fill in the silence a little but hey it was fun can't go wrong.  :) 
                                                 But anyway I am sure you know I stayed until Sunday and if you are a facebook follower you know what I have been up too.  Helping dad put up Christmas decorations and the tree.  I must admit it gets you into the holiday spirit and in the evenings we watched Christmas movies on the Hallmark channel.  So yes I am now getting in the Christmas spirit.  As I came home from dad's I have preparing for my trip to South Carolina.  Mom is helping me do my laundry and everything and going to help me pack Thursday.  I leave Friday 5:35 pm.  
                                                    I am REALLY excited but can't help but be nervous as well.  See I am flying by myself.  The last time I did this I was 11  maybe a little older but anyway I needed to be in the care of someone this time I don't. I can't help but think I am going to screw up.  I keep telling myself I won't I am being silly but I wonder if it is normal to feel nervous.  Mom gave me some good advice, she said,
                                "Follow the people when you get off the plane."  
                                  "Don't ever be afraid to ask for help, that's what they are there for."  So I'll take that advice but I still wonder if it is normal to feel a little nervous on your second flight alone.  Well better go, hope you had a great Thanksgiving :) 

Thanksgiving preparations

                                                         Can you believe that it's that time already?  Jeez I am sure you have been hearing a lot of talk about preparing the turkey, stuffing, or desserts or what ever you are in charge of.  For your information I have always loved Thanksgiving.  In fact it became my favorite holiday when I became a little older and when I realized that getting presents wasn't what Christmas was about.  For your information I think I got that talk from Rachel or Bridget.  I don't know where we were but one of them asked what if I understood the meaning of Christmas and of course my answer was,
                                  "It's all about the presents,"  LOL yeah the usual answer for a kid right? but they shook their heads and said in a gentle but firm voice.  
                                  "Christmas is not all about the gifts.  We give gifts to show that we love each other but it is really about celebrating Jesus's birthday."  She then explained how I was grateful to be able to receive gifts when there are many other kids who can't."
                                    Of course I didn't give that much thought until a year later I would say when I was 12 or 13 maybe a little younger when we were celebrating Thanksgiving when of course there are no gifts  you are just surrounded by your family or friends and you realize that gifts are not as important so ever since then Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday even though my birthday is on Christmas eve.  ;)  So I owe Rachel or Bridget or whoever gave me that talk a huge thanks.  So anyway I will be going to dad's this afternoon and staying till Sunday.  I will probably help him or watch him prepare the pumpkin pies tonight.  Mom was busy preparing her dishes last night after we came back from dinner.  I was lucky enough along with Mark to taste some of her fresh cranberry dish she made.  Well I will update you on my Thanksgiving day next time I blog.  So HAPPY THANKSGIVING!            

I wanna go away I need to get away

                                                
                                                        Wow is all I got to say.  If you are a facebook follower of mine you and if you are reading  you were probably asking yourself "Who is that girl?  Are you sure that's Heather?  Yes that was me if you read the status that was eventually deleted from my timeline right after the election after Obama was re elected.    I don't know why but Obama getting re elected affected me more greatly then I had thought because of how grandpa seemed to pressure me into voting in which I didn't.  
                                                    He kept on saying things such as "Are you registered yet, we got to knock him out.  In my opinion I was there too much this Summer.  The stress got to me along with a DR appointment that is coming up at the Cleveland Clinic soon and plus a the feeling of being alone  feeling of confusion, came to me as well.   Rachel called me yesterday and talked to me the importance of FB ect and had me explain my feelings ect as far as being alone"  but she thought alone meant I want to get out of the house where it meant another thing and at that point she had hung up to put Sophia down but at that time I just didn't want to speak to anyone and I told her because she had her "partner" Mark.  Anyway I wasn't well.  I was literally crying and saying over and over "I wanna go away, I need to get away."  It would probably remind you of how Logan was on his bed at his sister's house before he left to find Beth in the Nicholas Sparks film The Lucky One.     Of course I didn't cry all day yesterday but I kept on repeating the phrases "I wanna  go away I need to get away several times, I must have said it 50 times maybe I should have kept count.
                                      Well anyway I finally told mom "THAT" this morning and why I felt that way.  I felt that I am becoming this angry, depressing and I don't like the person who I am becoming.  She nodded in understanding and said "Why not you take a trip to South Carolina to visit Uncle Rick and that's what I am doing.     Yes My flight is booked and I am leaving on the 30th and coming back on the 7th.  EEK I can't wait and so are they.  I feel like I will come back a new person after I return.  :)  It will be nice to have time for myself.  :)  Well I am sorry that this post was a little down then usual but I just wanted to let you know what was up.  Bye for now.  

Time with the "whole" family

                                        
                                          What a weekend it was!  As you can see from the title we had family come into town and you guys proably know who it was if you are a follower of mine from Dillards or the mall.  But no it wasn't Aunt Karla, or uncle Rick, or any of them it was James and Joy.  We had known that Joy was coming in for a few months because her mom was getting remarried but we had no idea that James was coming also and he sure did surprise us when he walked in the door.  I guess you are wondering what we did ect and I do have a lot to say besides that so I guess this will be one of my mini post collections again. 
                                    It has been awhile since I had done one of those collections hasn't it?
                                                    (Friday) Surprise!
                                                       Well the good part of the day was just doing the usual, watching movies, trying to work on my novel, which can be a hassle at times and texting a new friend of mine who is a stay at home mom and of course wanting to do laundry but can not at times because there's clothes in the washer, or there's no detergent or softner but then when it came close to when I knew Joy's flight would come in I text her she gave me an update saying she had the rehersal and then of course the wedding Saturday and that she would come to our house Sunday and spend the day since her flight didn't leave till 5:30 pm.  But anyway later we were surprised that James had also came in when he walked in the house Friday evening instead of going to the rehersal dinner with Joy.  Everyone was surprised espcially mom but Onyx had beat her as far as greeting James first.  He was the first to lather James's face with kisses and hugs but yes we each got our turn.
                                             (Saturday) A very special birthday, expirementing with a computer
                                                      As far as James and Joy we didn't see them at all during the day because of the wedding but they did come over afterwords to spend the night and to hang out.  But anyway Saturday was Jess's birthday and I after sending her a text saying happy birthday I couldn't help but think of her all day and what a true and loyal friend she has been to me.  I couldn't help but feel a little bad because I didn't get her anything but our family doesn't really do gifts on birthdays for some reason.  Don't get me wrong  there will still be some gift giving but not as much as I've seen in other familys.  For some reason people like to give "me" gifts for my birthday then anyone else's and I feel like a spoild little brat.  :( 
                                            Yes I did feel like I did get something special.  Mark got a new lap top computer and therefore is handing over is old one to me.  Saturday was the first day that I really got to go on it and really expirement and get the feel of it but he said techniqually "it's not yours yet until it's all cleaned out which it's not but it soon will be.
                                        (Sunday) All day family fun, early birthday dinner
                                             You wouldn't believe it but this was my favorite and my least favorite day both?  Is that even possiable to like and dislike a day?  But anyway it was my favorite because this was the day that we all mom, Nathan, Hailee and I really got to spend time with James and Joy before they left.  We played games on our smart phones and  mom had made fondu which is James's absolute favorite along with a salad, and cheesy potatos.  He always recemends it as his birthday dinner.  His birthday is on the 8th this month.  I also love it when we have fondu because our family sits together at the table and interacts with one another when normally it's the opposite.  But it was my least because after the dishes were cleared and clean they had to go to the airport which meant goodbye. :(
                                     (Today) First blog post on different computer
                                      This is the first time I blogged on "this" computer.  I like it but I notice that there is no spell check on here and I must admit there are times when I DO HAVE a brain freeze is what I like to call it and I don't know how to spell a word for a certain time so I apologize if any of the future posts I blog on here have spelling errs.  Trust me I don't get brain freezes that often :)  well that's all for now till next time.
          


                                             
                                                   

Some of my beliefs, decisions decisions

                                           

                                                      Do you like the change I made in the background?  If you are a facebook follower of mine you know that yesterday was the start of epilipsy awareness awareness month and I asked for those who know someone with seizures or who have known someone who has survived epilipsy pick a day of the month and wear purple for them even if it's just a hat or a bracelet or just to think of something else to reach awareness.  Uncle Roger commented on my status saying that he would eat everything purple all month long.  LOL I will believe it when I see it but that is pretty creative gotta hand it to him.
                                              I got many likes on that status from people I thought wouldn't have cared.  Yes as you know I was lucky enough to be an epilipsy surviver and have been more then 3 years due to brain surgery I was lucky enough to have but unfortunally not all people are that lucky so I always think it's important to raise awareness for them or for any others who are dealing with seizures.  You might have noticed that I didn't use the word suffering.  I believe that it is up to the person who has the seizures decide for themselves if they really "suffering."  Now say if that person is a child now I would say the parents need to make that decision.
                                       For example I believed that I never really suffered from epilipsy until the times that I would have have the drop seizures 3 times a day but I had still had to deal with the challenges of it.  Many people have told me that my seizure disorder has made me the person who I am today and I agree with that.  Okay Okay enough of talk about my beliefs and awareness about seizures.  I hope I don't sound like the president candiednts who are running because I am sure you are sick of the adds that are on TV.  But anyway I am sure you are want an update on the book that I am trying to write. 
                                     The truth is I am back to brainstorming.  I did write a few pages but then came to realize that I still needed brainstorming to do and there are changes to be made and I realized that my lead charcter (Nichole) has to change gradually throughout my book and she needs to learn to adapt to her challenges in life even though she is already a strong person at the begining of the novel.  Yes, Jess I changed her name again.  I was going to give the protagonist my middle name but spell it Noelle instead of Noel but the more I thought about it I didn't like it because I wanted her to have a nickname that she just HATED that her grandpa calls her and Noelle there isn't really any nicknames to choose from.  I also need to think of some events that occur because Nichole's life isn't just centered on her seizure disorder.    So I might have to ask for help so I guess I am back to the decision making.  Well I am going to go watch some TV.  Til next time bye bye XOXO