Today's the day

                                              
                                                      Well today is finally the day I will be going on my trip.  I can hardly believe how time passes when you aren't counting down the days waiting for the day to arrive.  In a way I felt I really didn't need to because people were doing that for me.  Every once in a while starting on the 10th when the 9th when we knew that I was going for sure I would start getting texts from uncle Rick, or Judy telling me that they couldn't wait to see me and that there were so many days left.  I however didn't want to hear the count down because I was getting excited and if I heard how many days it seemed longer rather then shorter so I text "Stop it with the count down and it will  faster. 
                  Then of course I text a smiley face and LOL so that neither of them knew that I wasn't being mean.  Well anyway Uncle Rick and Judy stopped counting down the days but I still got little texts from their family such as Mandi and of course Rickey posted on my facebook timeline saying that he couldn't wait to see me.  But there were others who were still counting down for me such as mom, and mark, and grandma.  Every once in a while I would hear something like "four more days Frodo, aren't you excited?" Yes I was excited the whole time but I don't get excited to where I am jumping up and down until the night before or the day of we go somewhere.    
                          Yes last night I was pretty much all smiles as mom helped me pack and Nathan looked at me and asked curiously "Where are you going?"  mom told him and he looked at me with jealous eyes and said he wished he could go.  Mom laughed and said she felt the same way.  But anyway yes I was literally jumping and running around the house last night from excitement.        
                               Today I am bit calmer.  I think it's because the day has finally arrived and I will be on my way.  :)  I will update you on the trip when I come home I doubt I will be posting anything on here before then.  bye XOXO                               

A quiet Thankngiving, is it normal

                                           

                                                     Well Thanksgiving is over and as I promised I said I would update you on what we did, on how it was ect. As you can see from part of my title it was more quiet then the last couple years that we have had it.  Normally dad would ask a good friend of ours Dr Vretas and his wife to come over with her mother and of course there was James, Joy, and Hailee, and Nathan of course myself and he would do the turkey and all the sides that are popular on Thanksgiving and we would have fun socializing, eating, ect but at the end of the evening dad would look worn out and he said to me a month ago,
                                                     "It's too much for one person to do by themselves, I like to do it but it's so much work entertaining so many people by yourself I am just going to have you and Nate, and Hailee over this year."  
I didn't care how he wanted to celebrate it, I just wanted to celebrate it with him because for as far as I know Thanksgiving is Dad's favorite holiday as well and that is something I have in common with him. In fact when I got old enough to decide for myself where I wanted to spend the holidays with since my parents are divorced I always chose dad.  There is something about the way that dad is that makes the Thanksgiving holiday more special and makes me smile.
                                                 But anyway like I said this year was more quiet except for maybe the cell phones and timers going off.  A couple hours after I had woke I had sent everyone that I had knew that was  on my phone a text wishing them a Happy Thanksgiving and a little personal message like what I was Thankful for in them.  I had sent Jess one saying that I was thankful for her loyal friendship same with Becca.  :)  So my cell was constantly going and dad's was constantly ringing as well because James wanted to do the turkey just like his. But anyway it all came out great!  I got to admit it did feel a bit awkward at first with it being so quiet and without James and Joy there.  I got to admit I almost wish there was one more person just to fill in the silence a little but hey it was fun can't go wrong.  :) 
                                                 But anyway I am sure you know I stayed until Sunday and if you are a facebook follower you know what I have been up too.  Helping dad put up Christmas decorations and the tree.  I must admit it gets you into the holiday spirit and in the evenings we watched Christmas movies on the Hallmark channel.  So yes I am now getting in the Christmas spirit.  As I came home from dad's I have preparing for my trip to South Carolina.  Mom is helping me do my laundry and everything and going to help me pack Thursday.  I leave Friday 5:35 pm.  
                                                    I am REALLY excited but can't help but be nervous as well.  See I am flying by myself.  The last time I did this I was 11  maybe a little older but anyway I needed to be in the care of someone this time I don't. I can't help but think I am going to screw up.  I keep telling myself I won't I am being silly but I wonder if it is normal to feel nervous.  Mom gave me some good advice, she said,
                                "Follow the people when you get off the plane."  
                                  "Don't ever be afraid to ask for help, that's what they are there for."  So I'll take that advice but I still wonder if it is normal to feel a little nervous on your second flight alone.  Well better go, hope you had a great Thanksgiving :) 

Thanksgiving preparations

                                                         Can you believe that it's that time already?  Jeez I am sure you have been hearing a lot of talk about preparing the turkey, stuffing, or desserts or what ever you are in charge of.  For your information I have always loved Thanksgiving.  In fact it became my favorite holiday when I became a little older and when I realized that getting presents wasn't what Christmas was about.  For your information I think I got that talk from Rachel or Bridget.  I don't know where we were but one of them asked what if I understood the meaning of Christmas and of course my answer was,
                                  "It's all about the presents,"  LOL yeah the usual answer for a kid right? but they shook their heads and said in a gentle but firm voice.  
                                  "Christmas is not all about the gifts.  We give gifts to show that we love each other but it is really about celebrating Jesus's birthday."  She then explained how I was grateful to be able to receive gifts when there are many other kids who can't."
                                    Of course I didn't give that much thought until a year later I would say when I was 12 or 13 maybe a little younger when we were celebrating Thanksgiving when of course there are no gifts  you are just surrounded by your family or friends and you realize that gifts are not as important so ever since then Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday even though my birthday is on Christmas eve.  ;)  So I owe Rachel or Bridget or whoever gave me that talk a huge thanks.  So anyway I will be going to dad's this afternoon and staying till Sunday.  I will probably help him or watch him prepare the pumpkin pies tonight.  Mom was busy preparing her dishes last night after we came back from dinner.  I was lucky enough along with Mark to taste some of her fresh cranberry dish she made.  Well I will update you on my Thanksgiving day next time I blog.  So HAPPY THANKSGIVING!            

I wanna go away I need to get away

                                                
                                                        Wow is all I got to say.  If you are a facebook follower of mine you and if you are reading  you were probably asking yourself "Who is that girl?  Are you sure that's Heather?  Yes that was me if you read the status that was eventually deleted from my timeline right after the election after Obama was re elected.    I don't know why but Obama getting re elected affected me more greatly then I had thought because of how grandpa seemed to pressure me into voting in which I didn't.  
                                                    He kept on saying things such as "Are you registered yet, we got to knock him out.  In my opinion I was there too much this Summer.  The stress got to me along with a DR appointment that is coming up at the Cleveland Clinic soon and plus a the feeling of being alone  feeling of confusion, came to me as well.   Rachel called me yesterday and talked to me the importance of FB ect and had me explain my feelings ect as far as being alone"  but she thought alone meant I want to get out of the house where it meant another thing and at that point she had hung up to put Sophia down but at that time I just didn't want to speak to anyone and I told her because she had her "partner" Mark.  Anyway I wasn't well.  I was literally crying and saying over and over "I wanna go away, I need to get away."  It would probably remind you of how Logan was on his bed at his sister's house before he left to find Beth in the Nicholas Sparks film The Lucky One.     Of course I didn't cry all day yesterday but I kept on repeating the phrases "I wanna  go away I need to get away several times, I must have said it 50 times maybe I should have kept count.
                                      Well anyway I finally told mom "THAT" this morning and why I felt that way.  I felt that I am becoming this angry, depressing and I don't like the person who I am becoming.  She nodded in understanding and said "Why not you take a trip to South Carolina to visit Uncle Rick and that's what I am doing.     Yes My flight is booked and I am leaving on the 30th and coming back on the 7th.  EEK I can't wait and so are they.  I feel like I will come back a new person after I return.  :)  It will be nice to have time for myself.  :)  Well I am sorry that this post was a little down then usual but I just wanted to let you know what was up.  Bye for now.  

Time with the "whole" family

                                        
                                          What a weekend it was!  As you can see from the title we had family come into town and you guys proably know who it was if you are a follower of mine from Dillards or the mall.  But no it wasn't Aunt Karla, or uncle Rick, or any of them it was James and Joy.  We had known that Joy was coming in for a few months because her mom was getting remarried but we had no idea that James was coming also and he sure did surprise us when he walked in the door.  I guess you are wondering what we did ect and I do have a lot to say besides that so I guess this will be one of my mini post collections again. 
                                    It has been awhile since I had done one of those collections hasn't it?
                                                    (Friday) Surprise!
                                                       Well the good part of the day was just doing the usual, watching movies, trying to work on my novel, which can be a hassle at times and texting a new friend of mine who is a stay at home mom and of course wanting to do laundry but can not at times because there's clothes in the washer, or there's no detergent or softner but then when it came close to when I knew Joy's flight would come in I text her she gave me an update saying she had the rehersal and then of course the wedding Saturday and that she would come to our house Sunday and spend the day since her flight didn't leave till 5:30 pm.  But anyway later we were surprised that James had also came in when he walked in the house Friday evening instead of going to the rehersal dinner with Joy.  Everyone was surprised espcially mom but Onyx had beat her as far as greeting James first.  He was the first to lather James's face with kisses and hugs but yes we each got our turn.
                                             (Saturday) A very special birthday, expirementing with a computer
                                                      As far as James and Joy we didn't see them at all during the day because of the wedding but they did come over afterwords to spend the night and to hang out.  But anyway Saturday was Jess's birthday and I after sending her a text saying happy birthday I couldn't help but think of her all day and what a true and loyal friend she has been to me.  I couldn't help but feel a little bad because I didn't get her anything but our family doesn't really do gifts on birthdays for some reason.  Don't get me wrong  there will still be some gift giving but not as much as I've seen in other familys.  For some reason people like to give "me" gifts for my birthday then anyone else's and I feel like a spoild little brat.  :( 
                                            Yes I did feel like I did get something special.  Mark got a new lap top computer and therefore is handing over is old one to me.  Saturday was the first day that I really got to go on it and really expirement and get the feel of it but he said techniqually "it's not yours yet until it's all cleaned out which it's not but it soon will be.
                                        (Sunday) All day family fun, early birthday dinner
                                             You wouldn't believe it but this was my favorite and my least favorite day both?  Is that even possiable to like and dislike a day?  But anyway it was my favorite because this was the day that we all mom, Nathan, Hailee and I really got to spend time with James and Joy before they left.  We played games on our smart phones and  mom had made fondu which is James's absolute favorite along with a salad, and cheesy potatos.  He always recemends it as his birthday dinner.  His birthday is on the 8th this month.  I also love it when we have fondu because our family sits together at the table and interacts with one another when normally it's the opposite.  But it was my least because after the dishes were cleared and clean they had to go to the airport which meant goodbye. :(
                                     (Today) First blog post on different computer
                                      This is the first time I blogged on "this" computer.  I like it but I notice that there is no spell check on here and I must admit there are times when I DO HAVE a brain freeze is what I like to call it and I don't know how to spell a word for a certain time so I apologize if any of the future posts I blog on here have spelling errs.  Trust me I don't get brain freezes that often :)  well that's all for now till next time.
          


                                             
                                                   

Some of my beliefs, decisions decisions

                                           

                                                      Do you like the change I made in the background?  If you are a facebook follower of mine you know that yesterday was the start of epilipsy awareness awareness month and I asked for those who know someone with seizures or who have known someone who has survived epilipsy pick a day of the month and wear purple for them even if it's just a hat or a bracelet or just to think of something else to reach awareness.  Uncle Roger commented on my status saying that he would eat everything purple all month long.  LOL I will believe it when I see it but that is pretty creative gotta hand it to him.
                                              I got many likes on that status from people I thought wouldn't have cared.  Yes as you know I was lucky enough to be an epilipsy surviver and have been more then 3 years due to brain surgery I was lucky enough to have but unfortunally not all people are that lucky so I always think it's important to raise awareness for them or for any others who are dealing with seizures.  You might have noticed that I didn't use the word suffering.  I believe that it is up to the person who has the seizures decide for themselves if they really "suffering."  Now say if that person is a child now I would say the parents need to make that decision.
                                       For example I believed that I never really suffered from epilipsy until the times that I would have have the drop seizures 3 times a day but I had still had to deal with the challenges of it.  Many people have told me that my seizure disorder has made me the person who I am today and I agree with that.  Okay Okay enough of talk about my beliefs and awareness about seizures.  I hope I don't sound like the president candiednts who are running because I am sure you are sick of the adds that are on TV.  But anyway I am sure you are want an update on the book that I am trying to write. 
                                     The truth is I am back to brainstorming.  I did write a few pages but then came to realize that I still needed brainstorming to do and there are changes to be made and I realized that my lead charcter (Nichole) has to change gradually throughout my book and she needs to learn to adapt to her challenges in life even though she is already a strong person at the begining of the novel.  Yes, Jess I changed her name again.  I was going to give the protagonist my middle name but spell it Noelle instead of Noel but the more I thought about it I didn't like it because I wanted her to have a nickname that she just HATED that her grandpa calls her and Noelle there isn't really any nicknames to choose from.  I also need to think of some events that occur because Nichole's life isn't just centered on her seizure disorder.    So I might have to ask for help so I guess I am back to the decision making.  Well I am going to go watch some TV.  Til next time bye bye XOXO

Trick or treat flashbacks

                                         

                                                   Wow what a blustery day it was Sunday for kids to go trick or treating.  On top of that it was cold and rainy and just a mess.  In fact when it came closer for them to arrive Mark shook his head and said "if they were smart they would cancel trick or treating and postpone it till next week." Mom shook her head and looked at me and said 
                       "If I was a parent right now I would not be happy."  I am sure many weren't.  Yes the trick and treating went on.  Mark went out and got the candy and I sat out there for two hours handing out the candy.  I decided just to stay out there because the sound of the doorbell drives Onyx nuts.  
                         There were still a bunch of kids but there were not as many as usual. They would arrive in groups and there were small breaks in between.  So in those times I would go in the house and get warmed up and leave the bowel of candy on the porch just in case a kid or two came.  But anyway the wind was so was so fierce it caused a kid to fall and drop his candy and my heart broke when I heard him wail "my candy! my candy!" I just wanted to go help him but I saw his mom help pick up his candy and check him out.  Anyway as I was taking one of my breaks mom said that this had been one of the worst trick or treating days in a long time and she told me the story of how it was one year when we lived in Uniontown before we moved to North Canton.  
                      She said it was a cross between rain and snow then and from what I heard we went at night as soon as it got dark out.  OK OK enough about trick or treating you are probably wondering what costumes I've seen.  I will also let you know what I had been for Halloween when I was little.
                                      Costumes I've seen 
                                       M&M
                                        X man (he was the one who fell)
                                        Cinderella
                                        Tinkerbelle
                                         Ghost 
plus many more.  Becca sent me a photo of Aria who was dressed up as minnie mouse and my friend Robyn who I am starting to get close to again told me she was dressing her daughter up as princess Belle.
                                     Characters that I have been
                                       minnie mouse
                                       Jasmine (I dressed up as her twice but wore different outfits.  One outfit was the white dress she wore when she got married to Aladdin and the other was her her blue one you first see her  in the first film.
                                      Snow white
                                      Belle
                                      Hershey Kiss (I wore that twice)
                                      Which (I wanted to be an evil which but mom wouldn't let me LOL.  
                                       Sunflower (that was my last and final costume that I wore trick or treating.   That was probably my favorite.  
I am sure that I have been many more but I can't remember them all LOL.  Well I am just curious what did you dress up as for Halloween in the past or what was trick or treating like for you?  Comment and let me know.      XOXO     

Baby baby baby ooh

                                    

                                              I know Justin Beiber's song lyrics as the title of my post, you are probably already laughing at at me.  As you know from the post that I titled Dreams I am not the biggest Beiber fan but what I am about to share with you fits perfectly with this title LOL.  Well anyway you all know that I watch GMA (good morning america) with mom before she leaves but after she left they had the cutest thing come on.  They had a baby crawling race.   They had 5 babies who were not yet potty trained crawl on the floor for 60 seconds to get to the finish line. 
                                       The babies each had bibs with numbers on them.  It was cute because when their parents put them down and set the timer they wouldn't crawl right away and then the baby I fell in love with when I first saw her photo and description started moving.  She was bib number 2 and her name was Serena.  But then the others started moving also, as they were moving Justin Beiber's song Baby was playing in the background and that's why I chose it for the post title.  Serena was doing fine and maybe would have won but did a U turn blocking some of the other babies paths.  
                                    In the end bib number 3 won.  A baby boy named Devin.  He was a cutie as well.  All the babies were cuties but I couldn't help but root for Serena.  :)  Devin and his parents were presented with a trophy which I am sure he'll treasure when he's older.  
                                    But anyway I just had to share that.  Anyway I will be spending some time with Sophia tonight after we go to an event and she's a baby so I guess the title fits great.  I can't promise you an update because you know I don't blog as often as I used to but I will blog.  So don't worry I will not quit blogging.     

The pumpkin carving contest update

                                           

                                                           Well we did it!  We had our pumpkin carving night with the new traditions and all and I must say it was a blast.  I am sorry I didn't update you on this sooner but I wanted to wait till the pumpkin seeds were made and those take awhile.  Mom soaks them in salt water over night and roasts them in butter, and garlic salt until they are nice and brown and they are to die for.  Mom cooked them last night and they were delicious as always.  
                                                     But anyway back to the other night.  After I got back home from church with Jess I could smell what mom had planned to make.  Her special chilli recipe everyone loves and I saw the block of Philadelphia cream cheese along with the bag of carmals that I had to unwrap in order to make the carmal dip everyone loves.  So yes it seemed like we all had a some sort of job to do if you were home to get everything ready whatever it be stirring the chilli, laying out the newspapers ect but sooner or later we were done.  James and Joy had joined us on Skype and we were talking and just having a blast.  It was funny because in a way it was like James, Nathan, and his friend Ryan were almost  racing each other trying to get theirs carved first but they really weren't.  
                                            James yelled "One pumpkin is ready and even had mom running in from her place in the kitchen with a surprised look on her face.  She was like "No way you can't be done with yours yet,"  but we all laughed when he put Joy's dog Bella on the table along with the other dog Boggart.  There are so many types we did and yes I even did one.  Mom gave me a drill  drew a design and I drilled holes and instead of a candle mom put Christmas lights.  I have photos on facebook of how they turned out.  Joy sent me hers all lit up.  She did muffassa from the lion king.  I don't know if we judged this year but if I was a judge Joy and and Hailee would have been the winners.  :) 
                                  Aunt Karla said she liked mine the best out of all of them.  The photos are still up on facebook if you want to take a look and judge.  So in conclusion it was fun and even though James and Joy weren't there at our actual house at least they were there in another way. :)       

New traditions occuring

                                           

                                                   As you know James and Joy have moved to Texas and they seem to be doing well and they keep us updated on what they are doing as far as their jobs, what their doing ect but on the other hand every time there is a party at the house or just when the whole family's together we miss them because we know that they would have been there.  In fact you guys might think it's funny but there are still some things that we do that you guys might think childish such as carving pumpkins.  Yes we still do that and we do cook the seeds.  Mom does them perfectly and many people such as our neighbors have tried to roast them exactly like hers but it didn't come close.  I think only our family members could master the secret.  But anyway in the past few years we have had pumpkin carving judging contests.  
                                            Here is how our pumpkin carving contest usually works.  Whoever wants to carve a pumpkin will choose their stencil and start carving and once everyone is all done we will turn out the lights and light it up and take photos and everyone votes.  As we are doing it we are eating soup, and carmal dip, and apples and just having Autumn foods.  If you are asking what some past winners are:  Joy was a winner one year and so was Nathan and maybe James.  No I have never been a winner because I haven't participated in the carving process but I have helped by getting my hands in everyone's pumpkins and getting the seeds out.  But this year I might try carving even if it's just the basic jack o lantern.  But anyway this year the tradition is going to change a little. 
                                             James and Joy will be joining us from skype and be carving their pumpkins and we will on teams as far as judging so may the best team win.  I will upload some lit pumpkins that we carved on my facebook page and let you judge now that I have a smart phone but all I am asking is don't pick MY pumpkin just because I carved one.  Well I better go Lots of love    

Dreams

                                             
                                                   Isn't it weird how you do can things in you couldn't do in the "real" world, or maybe some of you have ever behaved differently then your normal self in your dreams?  Well anyway I had one of those dreams last night and I thought it was funny because it wasn't like me at all.  In the dream I had gotten a job baby sitting and these two girls dragged me to a Justin Beiber concert.  Of course I sit through the concert but then I sneak out backstage and as he is exiting I tell him to f...k off.  I of course don't know what caused me to have that dream but I would never say that to him directly in real life but in my dream that's what I did.
                                                      No, I am not a Beiber fan but I do not HATE him.  I wish him the best in his singing career.  I think what allowed me to have that dream was from watching a behind the scenes footage from one of my favorite Hollywood news cast Entertainment Weekly.  They were showing what he does to warm up before he goes on stage and what he does to help people.  In fact all that past week Entertainment tonight was having a week devoted to him.  But anyway Nathan CAN'T stand him LOL.
                                                Well anyway I can have dreams that make no sense and I almost know that I am dreaming like when I was finding out I was pregnant with my first child and my husband in my dream was hugging me and talking about names,  I knew it was a dream a long it was like "Hold it, I know I am dreaming now, let me wake up" and I wake up and I know it's right.  But of course there are others that feel so real like the dream I had the seizure. :(  That dream was scary but anyway that was just a dream.  Well anyway that is the end of my dream lecture.  I guess I will get going.  Bye.  XOXO    

"My" last visit with grandparents

                                            

                                                                Well I can't believe how time has flown by.  It seems like only yesterday grandma and grandpa were just coming back from their condo in Florida and coming back home to Canton for the Summer and I was constantly being picked up or getting dropped at their house or going to Cincinnati and Louisville with them.  But towards the end of the month that will all change because they will be heading back.  But anyway I am not sure when they are leaving but I have a feeling that last night was my last time I will see them before they fly home for Christmas.  We all went to their house and had a fabulous dinner.  Mom had brought the salad and grandpa had tried a new recipe he found in the newspaper.  
                                                         He made this spaghetti with a creamy clam sauce.  It was similar to his clam sauce he makes with his linguine but it was creamer.  Grandpa didn't care for it but grandma, mom, and I loved it.  Mark however seemed to like it but he later admitted that it wasn't like his original.  In my opinion I liked it better.  In my opinion I think grandpa didn't like it because it was new and he made it.  Someone (I won't name names) said that he doesn't like change.  I might have recommend that for my birthday one year.  :)                                                                                                                                                                                                                      Yes, I was asked to stay the night but I just wasn't in the mood.  I can't believe I am saying it but I was starting to get bored over there.  I think it's time for a nice break and I will be ready to spend some time over there when they come home for Christmas.  :)  Plus I do need to start working on that gift again I have been slacking.  Well better go bye for now.
                                                                        

Updates on the changes that "occured"

                                             
                                                             Yeah I know it has been awhile since I have blogged but if you have been a facebook friend you know why.  It is a little too personal to post on here because I know I have many followers on here then 5 and I don't want to offend that person which is one of my dearest friends.  But anyway I thought I would send you updates how I am doing with the changes that I had said would take place on the post that I titled changes.  Now I won't update you on all of them but I will update you on the ones that have to do with me or how I feel.  
                                       New Hair style
                                                 I know, I know I already updated you on this topic on my last post but you are probably wondering if I regrets on getting my hair cut this style after a few days and the answer is no.  I still love it and I have continued to get so many comments on it.  The most recent one was from Christie (Jess's mom) when we all went to a church cook out.
                                       New purse 
                                        I absolutely LOVE my new Coach purse that mom had picked up for me on her last day at Dillards.  I just love the black leather and the silver buttons that you press to open the two front pockets you can use to put your cell phone in.  The other front pocket could be used for make up or whatever and there is plenty of room in the zippered part and it's not too small or big.  It's perfect.
                                        Mom's new job
                                                 She seems to like it but is a little frustrated because she is at the learning stage and is eager to work, but knowing her she'll learn fast.  :)  If you ask how I am adjusting to this it feels kind of strange because she is getting ready earlier now and before we had time to talk but now it just seems like we don't have time even when she's home because Mark just wants to talk but oh well I'll adjust.  
                                         My new smart phone 
                                                 You are probably wondering what smartphone I got.  The answer was... the I phone 4s 16 GB.  They were having a good deal on it I think because the I phone 5 was released.  I must admit I was a little nervous because it's made of glass but mom said to me with the proper case such as the outter box I should be fine.  She said I've always taken great care of my phones.  She laughs because she says I handle them so carefully and dainty LOL. 
                                               It makes her nervous to touch it because she is clumsy LOL.  But anyway I am having lots of fun with it.  So yes that are the updates on the changes.  Well better get going.  XOXO     
         

Recovering from my hair cut "style" shock

                                         

                                                          Well if you are a facebook friend of mine and if you are following me on here you know that I have got my hair cut and that it was a little bit of a shock but right afterwords I completely fell in love with it.  Yeah I know many of you asked me to upload a photo of myself with the style that I chose but to tell you the truth I don't know how to take a photo of myself using my cell phone and to tell you the truth my cell phone takes awful photos but I promise once I get my new smart phone I will upload photos. I have not received one negative comment on the style.  Hailee noticed it first when we walked in and commented on it right away saying she liked it.  
                                                    Mark was next making a comment saying "Frodo you got your hair chopped," I like it."  So yes and then Katey came over later Wednesday night to help Nathan study for french, and was the next to comment.  She said I was meant to wear the hair style and that I looked amazing and the comments continued through yesterday.  Rachel came over with Sophia and she made the comment that shorter is better for me.  I must say though the funny thing was that I seemed to shock grandma.  
                                                   Yes, I did tell grandma that I was going to cut my hair but she admitted that she thought I wasn't going to do it.  She thought it was going to be a thought that was going to put aside but no she was wrong.  She didn't seem to notice at first until I turned around because it is a bit shorter in the back.  That's when she exclaimed "You got your hair cut!"  I told her yes and I said I was going to do it.  
                                                 She shook her head and said I should have known."  If you ask when the shock hit me the most it was when I first put my glasses on and looked at my self in the mirror when Jane (our hair dresser) was done and when I stared down at the floor my first thought was "What happened to my hair?" but I love it.  To tell you the truth I thought the shock was over when I left to go home but I think I was still in a little yesterday.  Especially when I looked in the mirror I would expect to see my shoulder length hair when I look in my refection instead of the style I have, and when I washed my hair last yesterday I used too much shampoo.  LOL but it is nice not to have to deal with so many tangles.  So I am glad that I made this change.    So anyway I better going Lots of love,   

Changes

                                       
                                             I am sure many of you have gone through a time when you were ready for a change or when things around you are changing and you just suddenly realize it.  I just notice that there has been changes or going to be some changes around me and some of them were my choice, and obviously some not my choice but some that will work out.  I would like to share some of the changes that have been going on so that I don't feel brainwashed with them.  I will list the changes and tell what I am looking foreword to or maybe a little concerned about. It will be similar to the mini post collection I do.
                                                 First  (Change of seasons)
                                                  Well it's obvious, that wasn't my choice.  It's just the rotation of the earth and how the weather works.  This is something I don't mind.  I just love autumn.  I just love everything about it and I feel like I can enjoy it more now that I am seizure free.  I am sorry if I mentioned being seizure free.  It's just that before my brain surgery 3 yrs ago autumn was the time of year my seizures would act up the most but now I can officially enjoy it.
                                              Second (Change of purses)
                                                       That was obviously my choice.  :)  It's not that I disliked any of the purses that I had but none had an outside pocket where I can easily reach for my phone if it ever rang or if I ever received a text.  Mom found a nice COACH purse at Dillards for a great discount and took a photo of it and I fell in love with it and yes it has an outside pocket.
                                                Third (job change for mom)
                                                         Well obviously this was mom's choice but I am really happy for her.  She got offered a bank job at Charter 1 and yes I did knew of this for a while but I was asked not to say anything.  She says she is looking forward to having holidays off and just being able to enjoy herself more.  She says I might be able to help her at times even.  :)  So tonight we are going out to dinner to celebrate her time she worked at Dillards which was 6 yrs I believe.
                                            Fourth (new hair cut)
                                                   That's obvious going to be my choice.  :)  Mom and I have our usual appointment Wednesday and for awhile I was thinking to go short.  I am getting a little nervous though because I am afraid I am going to get teased and picked on even if they are just goofing around.  People have called me ugly as a joke and I am really sensitive to anyone who calls me or anyone that I love ugly even if it is a joke.  :(  But I am going to go for it and cut it short.   I must tell you if you see me with the style and you don't like it please keep your comments to yourself. 
                                          Fifth (new phone)
                                                    That's right!  I am on the look out for a new phone.  My basic cell phone is acting up pretty bad and I am due  for a new one in October 1st.  Right now I am doing research, reading reviews, and searching for the perfect.....smartphone.  I know you would never think I would get a smart phone but I think it's time especially because mom and a bunch of her friends and family like to play Words with friends ect and I think it's time I join in.  Now let's see what phone I will get LOL.  :)  So you see how many changes plus I am sure there will be many more.  Well better go bye lots of love      
              

The writer's block has been lifted

                                     

                                                 Well it's official!  the writer's block is has lifted and I officially began to work on the rough draft of my book.  :)  Just so you know I am hand writing it first and then when I am done I am going to type it out on the computer so that I can have a chance to re read anything that doesn't sound all great and than once I am done I will print out copies and give them out for people to read and see if I need to improve and change and such.  I am looking for honest opinions when I ask people to read my book when it's time.  If any of you are interested let me know but please don't be afraid to tell me what I need to do make it better when it is time and please don't be afraid to tell me it sucks which I am sure you wouldn't say it that way LOL you would just say it needs improvement.  Of course if you are following me on face book you know that I had wrote more then a half a page.  
                                           Well I have gone further now.  I am going to be on page 3.  It's funny because I first started working on this book before my laptop crashed and now as you know I have been doing my blogging on mom's but anyway my whole story was on there and we couldn't get it back so I had to start over which was a drag but I had purchased a couple books on the style of writing and I have been teaching myself as I go.  Pretty impressive huh? LOL.  Well anyway the only drawback with me and writing is I can get obsessed.  To the point when I don't even want to stop.  
                                         There was one time when I had to say to myself "Heather it's time to take a shower now or feed Onyx and in my head I would hear "just after I write this one more word or sentence and I end up writing a page more LOL.  There were times where I would ask Nathan to hide my black binder or laptop from me when we had company so it wouldn't get in the way.  Well anyway better get going. XOXO         

Little white lie

                                       

                                                  Yes, I am still here I have just been taking a little break from the world of blogging and trying to focus on my style of my writing as far as my novel.  As I told you before the style of blogging and when I write my book are completely different and sometimes I forget that when I am trying to write the first page of my book I have to say "wait you are novel writing now, not blogging.  Sometimes I feel so frustrated I want to pull all my hair out.  So I just thought I needed a break of the blogging and just focus on the novel for a bit and plus there was really nothing going on anyway.  But anyway something finally happened today that just made me laugh and made me a little nervous at the same time and the title of the post shows it.
                                       I was asked by aunt Karla I would say a week ago if I could be a reference for them so that they could adopt two cats from an animal shelter.  Of course I had no trouble with it at first but aunt Karla said I might have to lie and tell her I am an old family friend because they were only allowed to put so many family members as references so of course I went along with it.  Of course I got the call and they got they asked if they were good with pets ect and of course I told them the truth that they had a dog and they treated her very nicely but of course they asked how am I in relationship to their family and I had to say the little white lie "I am an old family friend.  I don't know why but as I was saying it I started to feel uncomfortable.  I mean I have told little white lies to family before but at this situation I felt nervous about telling a little white lie to a stranger.  
                                       I mean it's not like they are going to find out anything or my nose is going get big like a certain Disney charter LOL.  Maybe it's just my guilty conscious LOL.  Well I better go.  Lots of love to you all    
                                                 

Back to dad's house I went

                                          

                                                        You know it seems most of the titles of my posts this month except for a couple have to do with a topic or start with a similar letter which is B including the post that I am typing now.  It's funny because I am not even meaning to do that on purpose.  This month so far seems to a month full of revisiting people and places that I haven't been in awhile and even seeing friends from out of state such as Becca but anyway yesterday it was back to dad's and I must say it was like a whirlwind at first.  See he was originally going to pick me up at 12 but text me asking if an hour earlier would be OK which I said that would be better.  Which of course was dumb because that meant 11 but I thought was 1:00.  
                                                    I know silly me.  My phone was charging in my room when he called and of course where was I? I was in the living room watching an episode Hey Arnold and Nathan raced downstairs saying dad is trying to get a hold of you.  I of course yelled a swear word and I run up and call and I find out he is in the driveway.  To make it worse I am not even dressed nor packed yet but since I didn't have much to pack a whole lot and since I already brushed my teeth and hair it took no time but still it felt like a whirl wind. 
                                          But anyway after a bit we were on our way.  Dad didn't mind.  He just laughed and he said Mark was talking to him as I was getting ready so that made me feel better.  But anyway we did our usual which is grocery shop, play Yahtzee (which he won, talk, and watch TV.  No we didn't watch no boring golf tournament like the last few times I have been there.  We watched the food network, and football and I watched The Blind side last night when I was relaxing in dad's room in his cozy bed LOL.  
                                        In fact that was the first time that I didn't watch one of my own DVDs when I was there.  Anyway dad was saying that we have to take a ride to amish county one day to visit and sample their cheese factory that they have because one of the cooking shows that we watched had to do with cheeses LOL.  Well anyway that's all for now, I better get going.  so till next time XOXO  
                                            

Book review (The Dawn Of A Dream)

                                           

                                             Well I finished my book and I am happy to say that I can finally give you a review and my thoughts on it.  I am going to the review a little bit different then in the past.  In the past I have logged onto Amazon and put down a random customer review on what they thought of the book but the more I looked at them the more they tended to give the story line away so I am no longer going to do that I am going to put down exactly what is on the back cover and yes I will still add my own personal thoughts and a photo of the front cover.  

                                                           Review Luellen O' Connell is stunned when her husband of one month tells her he is leaving and the reason devastates her.  Deeply wounded by his betrayal, Luellen decided to follow her dream to become a teacher, a desire she put aside when she married.  But can she put her feelings aside when she married, but can she hide her past?  or will it destroy her ambitions forever?
                                                         Thoughts I absolutely LOVED this book.  It gives you an inside look on how college life/ teacher's training was like back in the 18'00s.  It also gives you the courage to never give up and go for your dreams.  I would recommend this to anyone who is in college to become a teacher such as Jessie. or anyone who IS already a teacher such as Rachel. 
                                                          I must say I have to owe my cousin Maria a huge thanks because she was literally begging me to get the book because of it's cheep price and she knew it was the kind of book I liked but I was hesitant because it was the last part of a series but MANY people have said that they have read the series out of order and it is a good stand alone book.  So I thank you Maria for encouraging me to get it.  :)
                                          Well I better go.  I will not tell you what book I am reading next.  You will just have to wait for a book review but I might be working on my book for a time.  So I will keep you updated on that when I feel like it. I am happy to say that I am almost done writing on scrap paper and about to write my first page.  :)  So till next time bye.    
                                                              

A sneaky afternoon with Becca

                                             

                                                         Well the day finally came where I was reunited with a friend just like Grandma was reunited with Barb last week.  I think I mentioned this to you the last time but I Becca was in town and today was the day that she picked me up and we spent the day together.  We had everything planned out for weeks.  We were going to surprise her grandmother by arriving to her house and bringing her a pie which is one of her favorite treats but some of our plans backfired.  Becca missed the exit which GIANT EAGLE was on which we were originally going to stop so we had to keep going but Becca told me to keep my eyes open for any stores.
                                                       For awhile we didn't see anything except gas stations and we both saw a Walgreens but we were both a little hesitant to stop there so we kept on going suddenly Becca saw a Diary Queen and asked if I liked ice cream cakes and maybe getting her grandmother an ice cream cake was a better idea.  I was immediately drawn to that idea since it was a hot day.  In addition to the ice cream cake we each ordered small fries and I ordered a drink.  I know not much of a lunch but we had more when we arrived at the grandmother's.  When we got at the house Becca called before pulling into the driveway and she didn't answer.
                                              We both got a little nervous thinking she wasn't home but to our relief she was outside in her backyard doing some painting.  Boy she was surprised and she was shocked when I told her to open the ice cream cake box.  When she first saw it she thought it was for Aria (Becca's daughter) but I told her we got it for her.  I wanted to contribute toward the cake but Becca didn't let me.  She said I was just in charge of carrying it inside.  Darn you Becca LOL.
                                    But anyway all had a great time including little Aria.  She was walking and crawling around and playing with this porcelain kitty that her grandmother had.  She told us that every grandchild has loved that kitty.  We were sad to say our good byes when the time came but we had to.  Becca had to pick up her mom from her lunch break at work and after spending an hour at their house it was time for me to head home.  So it was a great time!  :)  I greatly owe Becca a huge thanks for inviting me I have come to love all her family.  So till next time XOXO 

Friendship update

                                      
                                                Well I am back from the short visit I had at my grandparents and as I told you grandma had one of her dearest friends come into town to stay a night and as I promised I would fill you in on all that we did.   Of course she didn't stay long but of course we did have fun.  Of course I came to grandma's house after Rachel's party that we went to.  I guess I will update you on all that we did including the party so I guess it is time for a mini post collection starting with Friday.
                                                  Friday thirty one party
                                                   Has anyone ever heard of thirty one products?  They are really nice.  It is a company that sells purses, totes, lunch bags plus many more things and you can have them personalized.  Rachel sells them and me, mom, grandma, and  aunt Lisa went to it and most of the products there to look at and they handed each of us a catalog so we can browse so it was fun.  Mom had bought a few things.  I was going to buy a purse but mom put a stop at that saying that there was going to be a double discount on coach purses at Dillards. 
                                              But anyway to answer your question NO I didn't get anything but at least mom did and I wasn't sure about grandma or aunt Lisa.  Yes little Sophia was there and was as cute as ever.  :)
                                                    Saturday Friends reunited
                                                        After we had breakfast grandma had went to the grocery store to get stuff on what we needed for meals and such.  She told me when I was over there that she feels like she basically lives at the store LOL.  She also told me that she always feels like there isn't going to be enough food especially when she has company coming and staying the night.  Well anyway her friend Barb came when she was at the store and when grandma arrived the three of us had a good time playing games and later we went out to dinner with uncle craig and aunt Lisa. 
                                                    Sunday Making our own decisions 
                                                             After a delicious meal of linguine and clam sauce curtsy of grandpa and after Barb hit the road mom came over and visited and asked if I wanted to go home or stay another night but grandpa was about to say I would like to stay another night with them but mom stopped him saying 
                                                     "She's old enough to make her own decisions, let her decide for herself,"  and I decided to head home with mom even though I knew I would be myself today.  Well anyway there will be one more friendship reunion coming up for me.   I will be spending the day with Becca Thursday and I can't wait!!!!  Well better get going till next time XOXO